Saturday, September 3, 2011

. . . Selamat Hari Raya 2011 . . .

I don't know what I really want to write here, but I just want to wish Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims and a huge apologize to all people around me.
This raya, I just felt so empty, don't know where I want to go to visit whose house, and I just slept in my room. Just go out for a while to see my friends just to make them cheer me up. I'm not really sure what hold me up from the happiness of this Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Not sure either because I'll have the final exam and a lot of assignments and a presentation after raya or because I scare about the past. Yeah, that's it! THE PAST.
Last year, day three of Hari Raya Aidilfitri, I've a bad injuries on my right hand. The bone at my shoulder was broken. All because the road accident. It was start with a happy beginning when all my closed friends met together at my house, made a lot of jokes till I can't even laugh anymore because the muscle at my cheeks got stroke already(LOL, miss that moment!). But, that happiness wasn't last long. About a little minutes, deciding to visit our friend's house at another town, my bikes got crashed by a car. And I end up my Raya in the hospital(with cute nurse, LOL xD). Haha, I still can laugh? No one really know, that accident caused the scars on my body and also my brain (I think) can't work properly. My head hit the front windscreen of that car till it breaks into the small pieces that I'm sure it can't repaired back with a glue. The effect is, my brain gotta limit when try to remember something and even when I was reading too. It caused a bad headache. But actually, it doesn't matter for me because I still can studying. I'm not losing my memory(Thanks to God!). Do this made me feel so horrible to celebrate Hari Raya Aidilfitri? My answer is, "...I don't know."
Then, how about the assignments, a presentation, and the final exams? Am I scare enough to all this shit? If YES, I should NOT!
But, last semester my result was so sucks! Got F*. Looking at alphabet 'F' make me wanna scream "Fuckkkkkkk!". And that '*' after the alphabet 'F' enough to describe that 'F' means "Fuck". Ouh, maybe I should stop use that dirty word. That 'F' is actually meant "Fart". Yeah, just a fart. Easy to let it goes out. LOL. I talked too much, did I? Hmm.
After all, I just conclude myself, I'm not scare to anything. This Hari Raya Aidilfitri, I just stay at home because I realized that Hari Raya for this year is not happening as before. I can feel it just after I'd done with prayer 'sunat Aidilfitri' at the mosque. No one wear their beautiful clothes as they should at Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Ouhhh, maybe got one! I just miss it. Sorry. From there, I know this raya not same as before. And yeah, I noticed it! This raya is too many banquets, my stomach was always full till I can't even walk or move out to visit my friends' house. That's it! That's the only reason! LOL xD
Maybe I should learn, how to lessen my words. I talked too much! =.="
And maybe, I should learn about respect. Respect people, respect things, and respect myself. Learn about respecto. :-)
Here is my last words for this post : -

"Selamat Hari Raya.
Maaf Zahir and Batin." ;-)